Year 2011 was a difficult year for me and for my family.
During that time, the series of heartaches were very overwhelming. I asked God to speak to me, to send me His messages in the midst of the lowest time of my life.
1. …God would not give problems we could not handle.
The next morning I was very anxious about His first message. I went online and tried to look for some good news. I don’t know what happened to me but I dared to send my bosses a brave message via Facebook. And surprisingly, the boss of my boss sent me a quick reply. Her message included the statement above, “…God would not give problems we could not handle.” Although at first it was not obvious to me that God was actually talking to me through her.
God was telling me that He would not allow me to go on my own. He is and will always be in charge of my life. Why can’t my soul take that truth? Why it feels so different? Why I can’t be strong? The next message answered these questions.
2. You are weak because you refuse to be strong.
I had been open to my wife about my feelings. I am so much thankful that she has been so supportive and patient with me. In the middle of my confessions to her, she suddenly said the above line, “You are weak because you refuse to be strong.”
It took me minutes as I absorbed into my heart the words she just said. I even asked her to repeat what she just said. And she said it again. I am weak not because I am really weak but because I refuse to be strong. I realized that it is so true.
I kept telling myself before that it offended me when people come to me and say, “I also have problems but I don’t get as absorbed as you do.” It offends me because it feels like they are belittling my feelings which is to some point is true. But when my wife told me that line, I remember the words of God to Joshua to claim the Promised Land.
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”—Joshua 1:9
God is commanding me to be strong. It is not a request but an order to be strong because He is in control of everything in my life and He holds my future in His hands. He is the source of my strength. It struck me with a realization that I had been refusing all my life to be strong. And as if that was not enough enlightenment to me, the following miracle had touched me so deeply.
3. Php 500.00 bill.
Left alone at home for my wife has school every Saturday, I decided to do little home-keeping at home. I saw the old bag which had molds all over it for it had not been used for a long time. I decided to include that in the next laundry so I took out all the things inside and guess what I found? There was a folded ATM receipt which hid a Php 500.00 bill! I know it’s not a lot of money but it struck me with such awe that I sat there on bed for long minutes as if listening to God as He said:
“…and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”—Matthew 6:32, 33
I had to smile at that one as if hearing God telling me, “See, I told you. I am your personal provider.”
4. “When I look back on all those worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened.”—Winston Churchill
That night I told my wife about the Php 500.00 bill and she was as surprised as I was. Then she told me the above quotation by Winston Churchill. She was replying to my worry about coming to work on Monday. I told her that if I would be terminated from work, I would rather file my resignation. And I am telling you it’s not easy to me. You may want to read The True Story to understand what I mean to say here.
Then I was telling her that it was like reminding that I should not worry, right? But it was like a momentary realization which I would lose the next day. There was a pinch of pain as I got reminded of what God had told me many times before:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life…who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”—Matthew 6:25, 27
5. “May the favor of the LORD our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us—yes, establish the work of our hands.”—Psalm 90:17 NIV
We had a guest speaker at our local church. He was funny and very inspirational. I could feel the tenderness of God as my worries were replaced with hope and insecurity with confidence. So I will go out and exercise the favor of God upon me. Whatever happens on Monday, let the will of God be done in my life.
Why are you downcast, O my soul?Why so disturbed within me?Put your hope in God,for I will yet praise him,my Savior and my God.—Psalm 42:5 NIV